Lost

Have you ever watched a show and just been so lost in it that once its over you have to "snap yourself back" into reality?! Where the whole time your watching you feel like your in the same place as the characters and your surroundings in real life all fade away. And once you snap back you realize "Oh yeah, this is where I am now!"

That happens to me a lot! I get invested and once something in real life distracts me, or I hear my son 'talk' to me I realize, oh yes, I do have a son, I'm not living in Miami or have zombies chasing me!! (in reference to the show 'Dexter' and 'the Walking Dead.

I really couldn't tell you why that happens, I really do love my life and everything I am blessed with and no  I don't wish things could be different. SO I guess I'm just a weirdo!

I do wish some situations could change but that would be on how I handle them!

Last night I was dreaming I was throwing my Grandpa a party at my Grams house and as I was ushering people inside before he got there, I faintly hear my son talking in the background. I know I was half asleep because in the dream I didn't have kids and wasn't married. I got up to check on my son and to give him his paci and noticed it was 330am. WTHeck! Zal doesn't normally get up and stay awake like that. I did drift in and out of sleep for the next hour and somewhat finished my dream, which is weird, I've only been able to do that a handful of times in my life.

In my dream I was so so happy to see my Grampa, younger (like 65), full of life, with a Coors in his hand dancing with my cousin to Cumbia music! I really didn't want to wake up, it felt so real to see him dancing there, just like when I was younger at family gatherings at his house. I ended up being fully awak by 430am, and shed a few tears........I just really miss my grampa a lot! But I was glad I was able to see him in my dream.